I've been staying at Jenni's place for the last few days since Lois and Milton are out of town. Essie went with them while Lou stayed at the house to take care of Reggie. It's been one of the best weeks of my life.
My family has always prided itself on how much stuff we have and how much money we make, and I always felt a little out of place inside that kind of world. Lou is going to be a lawyer because he likes the paycheck; the fact that he has done really well in law school is just an after thought. Essie wants to go into business for pretty much the same reason, and I am 20 years old and still am unsure about what I want to do with my life.
That's why I left college. I'm not going to spend 28 k a year just to sit around wondering. I refuse to go into debt while I try to figure my life out. College isn't for everyone. I know this, and I used to feel like a failure for it even though I knew that the decision to leave college, the decision I made, was the right one. I felt like everyone was dissapointed in me and that I was never going to gain their praise again.
Living with Lyndia and Jenni has shown me that all I need is a place to sleep and some embroidery floss to make bracelets. It's not about the house, it's about the people living in it. It's not about the size of your car, it's about how well you drive it. It's not even about how you get your laundry done, as long as your kids are clean.
I have gone to sleep every night this week knowing that everything is going to be okay, knowing that when I wake up in the morning I'm going to see ten girls faces looking at me, and even if they aren't all smiling they're still going to be there. They were not dissapointed in me. They loved that I was their counselor, just like they loved that Semona, Lindsey, Emma and Amanda were their counselors too. Working at willoway has shown me that yes, I do want to work with kids, and yes, bus rides can even be fun.